At that time, I wondered why Heavenly Father waited to give me that peace that I felt I needed so desperately. Why did I have to go through so much frustration and anguish? I was willing to do anything to recieve it, but it wasn't coming.
Looking back I realize that the anguish and misery created an undeniable contrast from when the peace and comfort came. I believe Heavenly Father was showing me that through his hand and only by him is Hudson going to be okay. This was a miracle and he didn't want me to easily dismiss it as luck, coincidence or anything else. I know that Heavenly Father wanted Hudson to be calm, peaceful and happy, but it is only through him that we could receive that.
Had Hudson been calm and good all along the way, maybe I would have taken it for granted.
Looking at how this came together, my mom reminded me of the story in the bible,
Gideon had to defeat the Midianites. The Midianites had so many people in their army that it is described as "like grasshoppers for multitude' and their camels were without number, as the sand by the sea for multitude." (Judges 7:12)
Gideon was told by the Lord to take his army down to 300 men!
Judges 7: 2 And the Lord said unto Gideon, The people that are with thee are too many for me to give the Midianites into their hands, lest Israel vaunt themselves against me, saying, Mine own hand hath saved me.
He didn't want it to be a question in any ones mind that it is by the hand of the Lord and only through the hand of the Lord that Gideon's army of 300 were able to defeat the Midianites.
Sometimes it is hard to recognize the Lord's hand in my life, but looking back on situations I can see how and why it came together the way it did. I hope that I can always see and recognize his hand in my life.
